20 years ago you would not have found a stronger christian.?

However this past year has been very difficult on me. I struggle with my faith now because a year ago my husband had an affair and filed for divorce. I prayed up until the day of the courtdate and I fought it. I just prayed my husband would reconsider. No miracles happened and we are now divorced. We did get back together but not remarried. ( I struggle with that too "just living together") He said we would work on the marriage and maybe remarry on our anniversary. Our anniversary is a month away and he say he doesn't know if he wants to remarry. My faith has taken a blow. somebody give me some good advice about any or all of this. My faith, marriage, what I should do. I do love him but I am not sure what to do. Thank you!