The effects on a little girl growing up motherless?

As a child, my mother was highly addicted to drugs and alcohol and was in and out of my life. Even while she was present, she wasn't REALLY present and would ignore and neglect my siblings and I. For most of my life, my father single-handedly raised me and all four of my sisters and brothers (beginning when I was a toddler) therefore I never had a mother in my life. Not really at least. I was on a first name basis with my "real" mom, rather than referring to her as my mom and visitations with her were few and far between. My dad never dated or remarried and I always felt an incredible void where my mother should have been. Things as simple as wearing matching clothes and having my hair fixed properly didn't happen and it always felt like a really huge loss for me and seeing the other little girls with their moms at my ballet recitals and school parties was painful. At any rate, I've tried very hard to forgive my mom and for the most part I have. But I can't help but wonder if her absence could have had a long term affect on my psychological health. I know sometimes abandonment can lead to BPD and other personality disorders. Does anyone have any reputable information on this type of thing?